Everyone Else....(but me)

Lately I have been going through what I would have to call the 'near-thirty-blues': a condition characterized by fear, considering the fact that in a few years time, my age will no longer be part of the calendar. It does not help that I am still a student and dependent on my family since I have no job. Years ago, I would not have imagined that my life would be like this now, since back then, I figured that I should be earning pretty well right now, that is not the case. I guess that it does not help that a lot of my peers and those younger than me are already going places and are on their way to becoming successful in their careers. (but do take note that I am extremely happy for my friends who are on going forward in their careers)
It's just that feeling that everyone else is going somewhere, but me.

Those who know me, know how stressed I get whenever the topic of doing well in life comes up. I guess because part of me believes that if I don't do well, I will be the only failure among my brothers and sisters since all of them are doing very well in their chosen fields. I also fear that I will end up as bum, forever dependent on my family.

Maybe it's just me, maybe it's just the fact that finals are a few weeks away and I am not that ready...

Love in the Time of Gloria

The past few months have been a classic example of how a government can spiral downwards as a result of certain corrupt practices. Who would have thought that 3 letters from the English alphabet (ZTE) could spell trouble for the government?

As the inquiry goes on, we continue to witness arrogance at its best as some of our legislators waste precious time asking unnecessary questions one after the other, when such time can actually be used to determine important facts which will help the people understand the facts in a clear concise manner, such that they will be able to act rationally (in non-Edsa 3 manner).

It’s sad to see such things happen, it seems that a lot of our government officials have no love for this country; one could say that this day the statesman has seem to have vanished and has some how transformed into a very hungry capitalist pig.

Our country is in a very terrible mess, so much in fact that you can see how many people are moving away, saying that there is no hope for the Philippines. I do not agree with these people. I believe that as long as you have any amount of love for this country, you will stay…

Tomorrow, people will be celebrating Valentine’s Day, or “Single’s Awareness Day”. During this special day, a huge amount of flowers, chocolates, greeting cards etc. will be sent out; all for the sake of love.

Love is, as a friend of mine once wrote in my barkada’s logbook, “one of the most written-about-things in the world”. However, I do believe, that even if such was true, no one can ever write something so perfect as to really capture love in its entire beauty. Each of us have our own individual experience, but somehow, whenever we share these with other people, we manage to find a common ground. This tells us that love is both universal and personal.

In the end, I believe that love is what will redeem both our country and our souls. It is what makes us see hope for this country, it is what will give us the strength to love even without being loved in return. It is what makes suffering a million heartbreaks worth it…

When you love, you never lose, you always win…

Stuff

We make a lot of promises, most of the time though we end up breaking them.
God knows how many promises I have broken. Most of the time though, I am sure that we never really mean to break such promises, it just happens.

In the long history of broken promises though, it's the promise to never break someones heart that will always be broken.
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This afternoon, I had an interesting talk with Bboy regarding a few things happening in my life, interestingly, he was able to answer a few of the questions that have been nagging me for the past few weeks.

One of the things he told me was that to promise never to break someone's heart is one promise that you should never give, because no matter what happens, there is a big chance that you will break someones heart. (take note that this is not necessarily what has been bothering me for the past few weeks) But he told me that should not matter, since what you do after breaking someone's heart is what should matter....

So I guess this is what I should say instead...
"I can't promise never to break your heart, but if ever I do, I will do everything I can to mend it, even if I would have to give you pieces of my own....."

(all that mush, I guess since valentines is just around the corner..... argh, single-blues.....)