Lately I have been going through what I would have to call the 'near-thirty-blues': a condition characterized by fear, considering the fact that in a few years time, my age will no longer be part of the calendar. It does not help that I am still a student and dependent on my family since I have no job. Years ago, I would not have imagined that my life would be like this now, since back then, I figured that I should be earning pretty well right now, that is not the case. I guess that it does not help that a lot of my peers and those younger than me are already going places and are on their way to becoming successful in their careers. (but do take note that I am extremely happy for my friends who are on going forward in their careers)
It's just that feeling that everyone else is going somewhere, but me.
Those who know me, know how stressed I get whenever the topic of doing well in life comes up. I guess because part of me believes that if I don't do well, I will be the only failure among my brothers and sisters since all of them are doing very well in their chosen fields. I also fear that I will end up as bum, forever dependent on my family.
Maybe it's just me, maybe it's just the fact that finals are a few weeks away and I am not that ready...
It's just that feeling that everyone else is going somewhere, but me.
Those who know me, know how stressed I get whenever the topic of doing well in life comes up. I guess because part of me believes that if I don't do well, I will be the only failure among my brothers and sisters since all of them are doing very well in their chosen fields. I also fear that I will end up as bum, forever dependent on my family.
Maybe it's just me, maybe it's just the fact that finals are a few weeks away and I am not that ready...
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